I grew up on Simms Bayou in Houston Texas during the cold war and was taught to duck-and-cover in parochial school, saw bomb shelters sold in the maul but to me it was all just something to be curious about.
I did not do particular well in school at first, just reading was a struggle. I did not see words like others because to me they were just symbols of ideas. I had a need to understand the why, the cause, purpose and effect. I excelled on science until I entered the St Joseph's College Seminary when I was 13. Catechisms, doctrines, religious theologies, and ideology seem to just create more and more questions.
The world was a mysterious place full of wonders and fascination but the people who wondered through my life became sources of confirmation. I was always asking question with a passion to know why things were the way they seemed to be.
What is the truth?
If the truth should set men free then the doctrine of Jesus should set the whole world free but with 40,000,000 plus denominations something was a miss. But patterns began to emerge as a followed the facts of law, history, and language throughout the landscape of time. How did the Gospel and the scriptures turn the world upside-down? What was the Christian conflict with the world?
The journey has been long but guided until the elements evident throughout the Gospel began to fit together. The General Prologue to John Wycliffe's translation of 1384 stated "This Bible is for the Government of the People, by the People, and for the People."
When I came to the desert to follow the leading since I was a child those elements began to come together into a clear picture of the kingdom of God and His righteousness. Every thing in life is a part of the great puzzle and the mystery of eternal life. Those pieces fit best when you do not force them.
"there is a limit to rationality and that rationality will never allow us to grasp the essence of life around us." We are often trapped in a wall of logic where the blocks do not actually fit together properly.
"And it is first at the moment when we start to realize that our capacity for rational understanding is limited that the building blocks of the logical wall will slide open a little bit and that the eternal life of music will be able to go through the holes of the wall and touch the strings of our body and soul in at that moment. We will start to resonate with the, the eternal vibrant spirit of life."