The Kevin McCauley Page

We live in Upstate N Y in a town called Schenectady.

We are Myself, My wife of 37 years Bobbi, at home at this time we have two of our Offspring Angela 15, Kevin 21, My older ones who live out on their own (mostly) Dan 30, Aimee 32, and Andrew 34.

Having children has been most likely the best thing that ever happened to me even though when we were married I stated that I do not want any offspring at the time I had no desire to take on that kind of responsibility.

See I had always been a believer in "God" even though I was quite misguided In my tree of Knowledge. When I found out we were going to have an offspring I freaked out and got pretty afraid. As I wondered and pondered what to do with my new responsibility, through a series of questioning my self about what I was going to do,came around to the question " How do I teach my child about God"?

At first I relied on my installed religious programming and said AH that is easy take him to "Sunday School". Well that just was not resonating in my spirit .SO a better way was revealed to me. I should go to Sunday School. I went to a "Church" around the corner, there name was "the Christian and Missionary Alliance". (started by a guy named A.B.Simpson)

I went to a Sunday Night Serve us and right away experienced some thing other than what was in my "catholic memory" NO genuflecting, no holy water, no candles, no statues, stations of the cross or rosaries. It seemed more real than my catholic learnings.

I got right down to business. Went to "bible studies" Got involved in the "evangelism". Prayed the sinners prayer and got baptized man life was good. We even got into "teaching the Childrens Church". This is where I really learned much working with them. Children are great teachers and I am convinced I learned more from them than they did from me. Even thought I saw some "miricles".

That all lasted about 5 years before becoming disappointed because the "Charismatics" around the other corner were way more "spiritual" than us "baptist" minded folks. So I took my wife and now 3 children over to get full of the "Holy Ghost".

So off i was got "The Baptism" yeah and I used to kneel at my bed every night for hours and mutter away. Was that "speaking in tounges" ? I don't know I was told it was and that I should not listen to what my brain said because my brain was the Tree of Knowledge and all corrupted.

They had a "Christain School"so we had our three children in there.

Later on I was filled with pride when they made me an "Assistant Servant Shepard". Boy was I puffed up really a spiritual guy now. What this was was their way of having "cell groups' it was all the rage at the time because Churches were realizing that people had a desire to do more than sit and listen to messages once a week. I thought this was great because this was where the real action is.

Ran into some difficulty when the Elders found out we were not learning the prescribed teaching. They called myself and my Servant Shepard (yeah they had a chain of command). When we went in they took us behind the "Altar" I guess this meant we were in serious trouble. See this was a charismatic Lutheran Church. I questioned the Cracker and juice ritual which I did not know would be heresy. The Chief elder spoke up in his most religious sounding Holier than everybody else voice. I see you have a problem with "HOLY COMMUNION". Man the earth shook and my rib cage trembled at he horror. All I could say was no I have no problem with that my question was is getting a cracker and shot glass of juice was really Holy Communion? We went back and forth for a while and I held up okay but went away feeling very ashamed that I would question the men in suits called elders. As time passed we found some books written by a man named Gene Edwards. This guy was an ex-baptist minister who left organized Religion and started church outside the organized church.

I got pretty thrilled as this really resonated. So after a while we and five other families decided to leave and we all sold our houses and moved to another town to Be the first century church.

I got "selected" to go to Romania to visit a home church there.

WOW my first Mission trip I was really flying high now.

Went there to teach the Romanians our American ways. They taught me a lot. the richest guy in the group earned $250.OO PER MONTH.

They lived in Squalor compared to us here in the U.S.

After returning home things got, bad and things got worse, I guess you know the tune.

We had a guy who wanted to be the "chief" because of his credentials and thought I was a bad guy cuz I seemed always happy and life was easy for me. He was not happy with me because Gene's worker picked me to go and I was no way advanced enough for such an important task. I must say I kind of enjoyed that as I always had a good time with Bullies. Even Religions ones.

The others wanted Him to be Pastor. I did not resonate with this but I went along to get along. After a couple more years of sitting and listening to messages, the whole thing fell apart. People were uncomfortable in this wilderness and wanted to go back to the organized church. So they all left except one neighbor who still lives here.

Now I got really depressed I had given up a thriving Auto repair business ,gave most of my money away and was now in debt up to and over my head in a dumpy old town with no where to go.

My wonderful life was a[wreck]. While on the internet one night an online friend Named Neal from New Zealand gave my a link to the old yahoo groups at HHC. AH I was excited again, This Brother Gregory guy has it nailed.

Now, I told my wife we had to move to Spoon River . We were right to leave organized Religion now we just have to leave Organized Government. It all made sense ( to me).

My wife had other ideas and rightly So. I had dragged her from a familiar secure life into no mans land. She was not about to trek half way across the country to follow me on another crazy pursuit.

It was a rough few years after that our whole life was wasted and in shambles.

As I hung around HHC more I got offers from others to "get me out of the system" for a phenominal Phee.

I had guys tell me God would not listen to me if I did not correct my status. At that Time I told God okay after all ive done for you and you don't want to listen to me I guess that's it Im an Atheist now. That's really gives me a chuckle now but at the time I meant what I said.

When time came to establish a CoRe in the north east myself and George a friend I met over at LB Borks place erected Kendall Anderson for PCM. Kendall was nice but he had His own thing called Reframe your world. George took over after and He was good too but was more into LB Bork than HHC. There was another guy who did not even believe in God or Jews so I ended up packing it in and was on my own again.

About April of 2013 I got an email from some one with some thing Greg wrote. AH this was like water in the desert for me.

After traversing my universe of religious activity. was back to. Love the Lord your God with all your heart mind and soul and Love your neighbor as your self.

At first thought was o yeah okay I know that ,This greg has not said anything new its the same old thing He said 10 years ago. The the lights came on. I realized Greg was the only guy who did not change His story.

It was then when I finally came in close to HHC. Skytop Mountian was the Core at the time so I came in for a closer look. I had followed from a distance and knew that Skytop had been hit with some thing that gave it a black eye.

I met with Nitsan and Isabelle and had Nitsan come up and stay with me for a week that summer.

We got to know each other and shared much of our "stories" together. As We worked to know one and each other I have re discovered this fact.

God has put His Spirit into us. His Spirit knows All things. If I had listened and trusted this fact over 30 years ago I may have not had to go through so many roads to get here. I see it now dimly. I have the Life giving Spirit of the Messiah inside of me and He is a well Springing up Eternal life into my corrupted operating system installed in my Tree/Brain.

Study is great and learning is all good. But the life we live we live by the Spirit.

We suffer from centuries of getting away from this simple fact. The kingdom is simple, but it is not revealed by flesh and blood [books, study, research, reading, etc.] it is revealed by His spirit, nature and character through direct experience, direct action of doing and walking it out in a personal journey of repentant, faithful, consistent, doing, loving, giving and forgiving according to His Way.

I am am greatfull to you Father for your goodness had led me to repentance. I am greatfull for Greg and His faithful service to the Kingdom. I am great full to all who came before me who have labored and stuggled for God's Kingdom

I am greatfull for the roads, troubles and trials and count it all a blessing as I see my Father has been always leading and has never left me. I am also great full for You Bobbi, a fine wife. I have not given you a great life and have dragged you through a lot of stuff and you too are still with me. You have taught me how to Love. Im great full for my 5 Children for all you have taught me. You taught me to be a servant.

We don't have to Con-Vince anyone we just Love.

Our Father calls to us.

If Indeed I do Love Him then I love you.

If I love you How can I help you. Hope I can

How can I add faith to your faith?

My Phone is 518.424.857

email is ditcher@nycap.rr.com

We are located at Schenectady New York

If you are near here and need a bed or food we are a Hospitable people.

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